remix 041 ~ cold
July 29th, 2005 | 6 Comments »inspired by “ladymorgaine81” :: original post
remixed image by “xjaymanx” :: added after composition
.post-meta {list-style: none; } .post-meta-key {list-style: none; } li { list-style-type: square; text-align: left; }i feel cold
not bad
not angry
not sad
not depressed
not low
not any of thatjust
cold
i still hold true to my ideas of Silent Apathy
i’m not someone they particularly care about anyway
i’ve always known that’s how it always was
i didn’t get it then, it’s still the wrong termbut i understand now
perhaps Silent Apathy
isn’t really holding to how i am
it implies a deliberate ignorance on my part
at any rate, i can’t deliberately ignorebut i can stay away
she doesn’t need to hear from me
she doesn’t want tobut i will send it out
one last message before
she becomes a background figureyou don’t like it
i don’t care
i can’t help it
i am who i am
i’m a watcher
i keep track
i pay attention
and i guardno amount of ranting will change that
August 16th, 2006 at 2:13 pm
I just googled my name again… ALOT more came up this time. Including this. I’d forgotten about this one. It’s nice. ;-)
August 16th, 2006 at 2:50 pm
yeah, it is ;)… so from what i gather, you’re deleting all of your googled posts?… both bad and good ones?
August 16th, 2006 at 3:25 pm
No no… not deleting ‘em. (Well, no, I did delete that one bad_sex post…..), but I pretty much just made everything friends-only. So even if they can see a blurb on google, they don’t have access to the posts themselves. Besides, alot of what ended up coming up is how I’m a member in bunches of communities, and that my user name pops up on a few LJ profiles. The only profiles I remember popping up this time was you, dragons_scar, and maneman. Last time I googled, it was just you. (Weird…)
August 16th, 2006 at 3:28 pm
hmmm, weird… the only thing i can think of is that i friended first, and the others came later…
August 16th, 2006 at 3:31 pm
Of the three, yes, you did. But then I’ve gotta wonder why redheadwtattoos, nightwriter4781, and a few others didn’t pop up too. (Well, nightwriter hasn’t posted in forever…. and redhead posts rarely… maybe it’s a usage thing as well)
August 16th, 2006 at 3:36 pm
interesting… maybe not usage per se (since it wouldn’t affect the userinfo page, would it?)… but maybe edits/updates to the userinfo page itself… i know i’ve done that a few times per year…