{"id":71,"date":"2005-09-20T04:58:00","date_gmt":"2005-09-20T11:58:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toybox\/2005\/09\/20\/graceful-agony\/"},"modified":"2005-09-20T04:58:00","modified_gmt":"2005-09-20T11:58:00","slug":"graceful-agony","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/09\/20\/graceful-agony\/","title":{"rendered":"remix 066 ~ graceful agony"},"content":{"rendered":"

images by “goldfish_<\/strong><\/a>” :: original post<\/b><\/a>
\nremixed image by “xjaymanx<\/strong>”
\npart *1* words by “goldfish_<\/strong>”
\npart *2* words by “xjaymanx<\/strong>”<\/p>\n


\ngraceful agony<\/a><\/p>\n

*1*<\/p>\n

i am miserably lonely.
\nsome people have the ability
\nto be lonely in a careless,
\nor maybe even graceful way,
\nbut i rarely manage.<\/p>\n

my roads are winding. dark. misleading.
\ni’ve been waiting for a very long time now,
\na very very long time longer than ever,
\nbut every little adding moment
\ni managed to convince myself
\nthat it was worth it
\nas there was no other way.<\/p>\n

*2*<\/p>\n

like those<\/p>\n

fleeting moments<\/p>\n

when the<\/p>\n

glittering shards<\/p>\n

of a<\/p>\n

shattered mirror<\/p>\n

descend<\/p>\n

towards the<\/p>\n

sleeping earth<\/p>\n

they<\/p>\n

are the<\/p>\n

slow-motion<\/p>\n

whispers<\/p>\n

of<\/p>\n

graceful<\/p>\n

agony<\/i><\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

images by “goldfish_” :: original post remixed image by “xjaymanx” part *1* words by “goldfish_” part *2* words by “xjaymanx” graceful agony *1* i am miserably lonely. some people have the ability to be lonely in a careless, or maybe even graceful way, but i rarely manage. my roads are winding. dark. misleading. i’ve been … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0},"categories":[3,4],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7rIwb-19","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":23,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/12\/that-look-i-will-never-forget\/","url_meta":{"origin":71,"position":0},"title":"remix 019 ~ that look, i will never forget","author":"xjaymanx","date":"July 12, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"words & images by \"goldfish_\" :: original post remixed image by \"xjaymanx\" that look, i will never forget | words by goldfish_ That look, i will never forget. 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