{"id":57,"date":"2005-08-10T14:36:00","date_gmt":"2005-08-10T21:36:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xjaymanx.com\/wordpress\/?p=60"},"modified":"2005-08-10T14:36:00","modified_gmt":"2005-08-10T21:36:00","slug":"shattered","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/08\/10\/shattered\/","title":{"rendered":"remix 052 ~ shattered"},"content":{"rendered":"

images by “cardboardboxed<\/strong><\/a>” :: various original posts<\/b><\/a>
\nremixed image & words by “xjaymanx<\/strong>”<\/p>\n


\nshattered<\/a><\/p>\n

“what’s wrong?” i said,
\n“i don’t understand!”<\/p>\n

“that’s right!” she screamed,
\n“you don’t understand!”<\/p>\n

“get out!” she shoved
\nand slammed the door behind me
\nyet all i could do was stand numbly in the hallway<\/p>\n

to nurse my wounds,
\nboth physical and cynical,
\nunder the crackling cackling fluorescent light<\/p>\n

she was right, after all,
\ni didn’t understand her<\/p>\n

i couldn’t understand her
\nnarcissistic loves or
\nmonotheistic fears or
\nanti-depressant hopes or
\nself-destructive dreams or
\ndecapitating nightmares or<\/p>\n

her intermittent urge
\nto inscribe her bitter misery
\nonto her deftly-traced double-spaced skin<\/p>\n

and all i could do was stare blankly down the hallway<\/p>\n

in bruised silence.<\/p>\n

but when i heard her cry,
\nher sobs shattered my doubts
\nand i turned to her door once more<\/p>\n

with a determined sigh,
\ni shut my bloodshot eyes
\nand raised my knuckle to the artificial wood<\/p>\n

and knock-knocked.<\/i><\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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