{"id":56,"date":"2005-08-10T02:52:00","date_gmt":"2005-08-10T09:52:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xjaymanx.com\/wordpress\/?p=59"},"modified":"2005-08-10T02:52:00","modified_gmt":"2005-08-10T09:52:00","slug":"uninvited-dream","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/08\/10\/uninvited-dream\/","title":{"rendered":"remix 051 ~ uninvited dream"},"content":{"rendered":"

images & words by “benderrrrr<\/strong><\/a>” :: link to original post no longer exists<\/b>
\nremixed image & words by “xjaymanx<\/strong>”<\/p>\n


\nuninvited dream<\/a><\/p>\n

you used to love that freckle. always said so.
\nfunny how i had a dream about you last night.
\ni’ve never had a dream of things in the past.<\/p>\n

you were saying that thing from ‘vanilla sky’
\ni kept mentioning things like ‘vanilla’ until you understood.
\ni loved your face when you realized i knew that quote too.<\/p>\n

you loved to say that corny stuff.
\ni guess i liked it deep down,
\nbut now i just roll my eyes at it.<\/p>\n

the magic is gone you know.
\nnew person,
\nnew start,
\nnew times
\ni guess.<\/p>\n

this isn’t about missing you. because i don’t.
\ni actually think i dreamt this because i don’t miss you.
\ndoes that sound weird? at least confusing?<\/p>\n

maybe the dream presented a closed chapter?<\/p>\n

i’m not looking back. or wishing i have what i had.
\ni’m just praising this memory
\nas it popped up uninvited,
\nin my dreams,
\nlast night.<\/i><\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

images & words by “benderrrrr” :: link to original post no longer exists remixed image & words by “xjaymanx” uninvited dream you used to love that freckle. always said so. funny how i had a dream about you last night. i’ve never had a dream of things in the past. you were saying that thing … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0},"categories":[3,9],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7rIwb-U","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":64,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/08\/20\/what-if\/","url_meta":{"origin":56,"position":0},"title":"remix 059 ~ what if","author":"xjaymanx","date":"August 20, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"images by \"benderrrrr\" :: original post 1 2 remixed image & words by \"xjaymanx\" what if \"what if life is just a dream?\" she asked me as i pulled my sleeve and turned to check my watch \"what if you are just playing a role in that dream?\" she wondered\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Remix"","block_context":{"text":"Remix","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/category\/remix\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":69,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/09\/10\/marmalade-dream\/","url_meta":{"origin":56,"position":1},"title":"remix 064 ~ marmalade dream","author":"xjaymanx","date":"September 10, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"images by \"benderrrrr\" :: original post 1 2 remixed image & words by \"xjaymanx\" marmalade dream and there! 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