{"id":45,"date":"2005-07-29T18:11:00","date_gmt":"2005-07-30T01:11:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xjaymanx.com\/wordpress\/?p=48"},"modified":"2005-07-29T18:11:00","modified_gmt":"2005-07-30T01:11:00","slug":"cold","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/29\/cold\/","title":{"rendered":"remix 041 ~ cold"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>inspired by &#8220;<a href=\"http:\/\/ladymorgaine81.livejournal.com\"><strong>ladymorgaine81<\/strong><\/a>&#8221; :: <a href=\"http:\/\/www.livejournal.com\/users\/ladymorgaine81\/35626.html\"><b>original post<\/b><\/a><br \/>\nremixed image by &#8220;<strong>xjaymanx<\/strong>&#8221; :: added after composition<\/p>\n<p><a target=\"new\" href=\"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/xjaymanx\/Images-remixes\/ladymorgaine_stare02.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" border=\"1\" src=\"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/xjaymanx\/Images-remixes\/ladymorgaine_stare02th.jpg\"><br \/>\ncold<\/a><\/p>\n<blockquote><p><i>i feel cold<\/p>\n<p>not bad<br \/>\nnot angry<br \/>\nnot sad<br \/>\nnot depressed<br \/>\nnot low<br \/>\nnot any of that<\/p>\n<p>just<\/p>\n<p>cold<\/p>\n<p>i still hold true to my ideas of Silent Apathy<br \/>\ni&#8217;m not someone they particularly care about anyway<br \/>\ni&#8217;ve always known that&#8217;s how it always was<br \/>\ni didn&#8217;t get it then, it&#8217;s still the wrong term<\/p>\n<p>but i understand now<\/p>\n<p>perhaps Silent Apathy<br \/>\nisn&#8217;t really holding to how i am<br \/>\nit implies a deliberate ignorance on my part<br \/>\nat any rate, i can&#8217;t deliberately ignore<\/p>\n<p>but i can stay away<\/p>\n<p>she doesn&#8217;t need to hear from me<br \/>\nshe doesn&#8217;t want to<\/p>\n<p>but i will send it out<\/p>\n<p>one last message before<br \/>\nshe becomes a background figure<\/p>\n<p>you don&#8217;t like it<br \/>\ni don&#8217;t care<br \/>\ni can&#8217;t help it<br \/>\ni am who i am<br \/>\ni&#8217;m a watcher<br \/>\ni keep track<br \/>\ni pay attention<br \/>\nand i guard<\/p>\n<p>no amount of ranting will change that<\/i><\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>inspired by &#8220;ladymorgaine81&#8221; :: original post remixed image by &#8220;xjaymanx&#8221; :: added after composition cold i feel cold not bad not angry not sad not depressed not low not any of that just cold i still hold true to my ideas of Silent Apathy i&#8217;m not someone they particularly care about anyway i&#8217;ve always known &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/29\/cold\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-45","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-remix","category-remix-morgaine"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/45","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=45"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/45\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=45"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=45"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=45"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}