{"id":31,"date":"2005-07-15T17:24:00","date_gmt":"2005-07-16T00:24:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xjaymanx.com\/wordpress\/?p=34"},"modified":"2005-07-15T17:24:00","modified_gmt":"2005-07-16T00:24:00","slug":"smooshed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/15\/smooshed\/","title":{"rendered":"remix 027 ~ smooshed"},"content":{"rendered":"

inspired by “ladymorgaine81<\/strong><\/a>” :: original post<\/b><\/a>
\nremixed words by “xjaymanx<\/strong>”<\/p>\n

smooshed
\ncompressed
\nunder pressure
\nwith no room to move<\/p>\n

unaware
\nless aware than she used to be<\/p>\n

–i don’t hear them!–<\/p>\n

startled
\nleaping three feet into the air
\nor skip-skipping a heartbeat<\/p>\n

she can’t help it
\nshe can’t find another outlet
\nshe’s getting angry and pissed
\nand
\ncrying
\nagain<\/p>\n

–i don’t cry in front of other people!–<\/p>\n

maybe she’d feel better if things started to go up
\nyet the higher she rises
\nthe further she falls<\/p>\n

maybe she’d feel different if life wasn’t so isolated
\nsurrounded by crowds
\nbut so entirely alone<\/p>\n

maybe if she didn’t hate
\nwhere she was
\nso much<\/p>\n

maybe if she didn’t hate
\nwho she was
\nso much<\/p>\n

maybe she’d smile
\nagain<\/i><\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

inspired by “ladymorgaine81” :: original post remixed words by “xjaymanx” smooshed compressed under pressure with no room to move unaware less aware than she used to be –i don’t hear them!– startled leaping three feet into the air or skip-skipping a heartbeat she can’t help it she can’t find another outlet she’s getting angry and … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0},"categories":[3,5],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/s7rIwb-smooshed","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":72,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/09\/23\/i-suppose-i-could\/","url_meta":{"origin":31,"position":0},"title":"remix 067 ~ i suppose i could","author":"xjaymanx","date":"September 23, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"inspired by \"ladymorgaine81\" :: original post google image search by \"xjaymanx\" remixed image by \"xjaymanx\" remixed words by \"ladymorgaine81\" & \"xjaymanx\" i suppose i could i'm annoyed after tearing my room apart putting it back together doing all the laundry and rearranging the other room i still can't find my\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Remix"","block_context":{"text":"Remix","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/category\/remix\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":25,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/12\/not-so-random-things\/","url_meta":{"origin":31,"position":1},"title":"remix 021 ~ not so random things","author":"xjaymanx","date":"July 12, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"inspired by \"ladymorgaine81\" :: original post remixed image & words by \"xjaymanx\" :: added after composition not so random things not so random things exhaustingly bright and hot light is not my friend heat is my sworn enemy work sucks again nothing new there a surprising amount of traffic mostly\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Remix"","block_context":{"text":"Remix","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/category\/remix\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":45,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/29\/cold\/","url_meta":{"origin":31,"position":2},"title":"remix 041 ~ cold","author":"xjaymanx","date":"July 29, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"inspired by \"ladymorgaine81\" :: original post remixed image by \"xjaymanx\" :: added after composition cold i feel cold not bad not angry not sad not depressed not low not any of that just cold i still hold true to my ideas of Silent Apathy i'm not someone they particularly care\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Remix"","block_context":{"text":"Remix","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/category\/remix\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":11,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/11\/missing\/","url_meta":{"origin":31,"position":3},"title":"remix 007 ~ missing","author":"xjaymanx","date":"July 11, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"inspired by \"ladymorgaine81\" :: original post no original image :: rare :: mod words by \"xjaymanx\" missing pen to paper better late than never rusty resisting the gravity of fantastical visions and vibrations wishing something for myself","rel":"","context":"In "Remix"","block_context":{"text":"Remix","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/category\/remix\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":24,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/12\/a-gasp\/","url_meta":{"origin":31,"position":4},"title":"remix 020 ~ a gasp","author":"xjaymanx","date":"July 12, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"images by \"goldfish_\" :: original post remixed image & words by \"xjaymanx\" a gasp --a gasp-- the feathers of faint memories tickle-tickle the front door of her sensitive heart --a glance-- they toss the twinkling-twinkling candle within her fragile house of cards displaced patterned cards precariously climbing one by one\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Remix"","block_context":{"text":"Remix","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/category\/remix\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":69,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/09\/10\/marmalade-dream\/","url_meta":{"origin":31,"position":5},"title":"remix 064 ~ marmalade dream","author":"xjaymanx","date":"September 10, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"images by \"benderrrrr\" :: original post 1 2 remixed image & words by \"xjaymanx\" marmalade dream and there! there she was down abbey's winding road, a-hopping and a-skipping, a-lugging a hard-day's load \"you're such a strange girl!\" i chuck-chuckled from my tree, and hanging upside down, i joked \"help! i\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Remix"","block_context":{"text":"Remix","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/category\/remix\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]}],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=31"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=31"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=31"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=31"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}