{"id":15,"date":"2005-07-11T01:54:00","date_gmt":"2005-07-11T08:54:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/xjaymanx.com\/wordpress\/?p=18"},"modified":"2005-07-11T01:54:00","modified_gmt":"2005-07-11T08:54:00","slug":"anxious","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/11\/anxious\/","title":{"rendered":"remix 011 ~ anxious"},"content":{"rendered":"

images by “goldfish_<\/strong><\/a>” :: link to original post no longer exists<\/strong><\/a> :: mod
\nwords by “xjaymanx<\/strong>”<\/p>\n

anxious
\neyes darting<\/em><\/p>\n

lips soothed by
\ntrembling fingers<\/em><\/p>\n

she curls
\nherself into a
\nlittle blue-eyed ball<\/em><\/p>\n

bouncing<\/em><\/p>\n

sunlight softly unfurls
\nits warm blanket
\nupon her frail
\nshoulder<\/em><\/p>\n

london calling<\/em><\/p>\n

she hopes it embraces her
\nas vividly as its
\npostcards<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

images by “goldfish_” :: link to original post no longer exists :: mod words by “xjaymanx” anxious eyes darting lips soothed by trembling fingers she curls herself into a little blue-eyed ball bouncing sunlight softly unfurls its warm blanket upon her frail shoulder london calling she hopes it embraces her as vividly as its postcards<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0},"categories":[3,4],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/s7rIwb-anxious","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":9,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/11\/i-have-fairy-lights\/","url_meta":{"origin":15,"position":0},"title":"remix 005 ~ i have fairy lights","author":"xjaymanx","date":"July 11, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"images by \"goldfish_\" :: link to original post no longer exists :: mod remixed image & words by \"xjaymanx\" i have fairy lights i have fairy lights silent fireflies fluttering hovering like misty mystical snowflakes tiny dancing angels comforting me humming to me giving me permission to be intoxicated in\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Remix"","block_context":{"text":"Remix","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/category\/remix\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":71,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/09\/20\/graceful-agony\/","url_meta":{"origin":15,"position":1},"title":"remix 066 ~ graceful agony","author":"xjaymanx","date":"September 20, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"images by \"goldfish_\" :: original post remixed image by \"xjaymanx\" part *1* words by \"goldfish_\" part *2* words by \"xjaymanx\" graceful agony *1* i am miserably lonely. some people have the ability to be lonely in a careless, or maybe even graceful way, but i rarely manage. my roads are\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Remix"","block_context":{"text":"Remix","link":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/category\/remix\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":23,"url":"http:\/\/www.xjaymanx.com\/toyboxx\/2005\/07\/12\/that-look-i-will-never-forget\/","url_meta":{"origin":15,"position":2},"title":"remix 019 ~ that look, i will never forget","author":"xjaymanx","date":"July 12, 2005","format":false,"excerpt":"words & images by \"goldfish_\" :: original post remixed image by \"xjaymanx\" that look, i will never forget | words by goldfish_ That look, i will never forget. 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