Archive for July, 2005

remix 043 ~ hurts

Saturday, July 30th, 2005

images by “night_huntress” :: original post 1 2
remixed image by “xjaymanx


hurts

it hurts

it hurts
when he says
he only has that
connection with her

and can’t be himself
with everyone or

with me

i can’t really expect us to
instantly have that
connection

but just the fact that
he can’t be himself
and he’s not really
happy

hurts me

remix 042 ~ closer

Saturday, July 30th, 2005

images by “night_huntress” :: original post
remixed image by “xjaymanx


closer

slowly

silently

steadily

seductively

she inched the
lime-green apple
closer to her blood-red lips

closer

so close

until her vibrant curls
swept across its curves
and caressed its sweet surface

never

he never had a chance
to catch his next

breath

remix 041 ~ cold

Friday, July 29th, 2005

inspired by “ladymorgaine81” :: original post
remixed image by “xjaymanx” :: added after composition


cold

i feel cold

not bad
not angry
not sad
not depressed
not low
not any of that

just

cold

i still hold true to my ideas of Silent Apathy
i’m not someone they particularly care about anyway
i’ve always known that’s how it always was
i didn’t get it then, it’s still the wrong term

but i understand now

perhaps Silent Apathy
isn’t really holding to how i am
it implies a deliberate ignorance on my part
at any rate, i can’t deliberately ignore

but i can stay away

she doesn’t need to hear from me
she doesn’t want to

but i will send it out

one last message before
she becomes a background figure

you don’t like it
i don’t care
i can’t help it
i am who i am
i’m a watcher
i keep track
i pay attention
and i guard

no amount of ranting will change that

remix 040 ~ 14 days

Friday, July 29th, 2005

images by “mokk” :: original post
remixed image by “xjaymanx


14 days

14 days

he’s
going away
for two weeks

he
insults me
expects me
to apologise
for his mistakes

he
hurts me
a whore
for him

but i
love him
adore him

and he’s
going away
for two weeks

i don’t
i don’t know what to do

remix 039 ~ hard to switch off

Thursday, July 28th, 2005

inspired by “_dernhelm” :: original post
remixed image by “xjaymanx” :: googled original image



hard to switch off

hard to switch off
the child
button

forgot to charge my ipod
no music
for the ride in or
lunch time

thought it was okay
can deal with that
just buy a mag and
chill out

forgot to pack my house keys
my folks decided
they were coming back
late
after numerous assurances
this morning
they would be back
on time

spent
the evening
miserable

wandering around london
in my long ass trousers
dragging in the rain
no music to keep
my spirits up and
a long wait before
i could jump
in the shower
and relax

geez

remix 038 ~ a mistake

Wednesday, July 27th, 2005

images by “jennyboozz” & theresa :: original post
remixed image by “xjaymanx


a mistake

–a mistake–

she said
and giggled
as she flowed
from one side
of the room
to the other

she growled
with glee as
david bowie glared
in bright red
on the walls

i chuckled
behind my lens
behind my smile

as her momentary
middle finger rose
and randomly broke
my distant
solitude

with
the snap
of the camera

remix 037 ~ i wish

Monday, July 25th, 2005

images by “_intherain_” & “medvedev” :: original post
remixed image by “xjaymanx


i wish

as i
left her
in quivering tears
in the shivering rain

i didn’t look back
i couldn’t look back

afraid

afraid i would be drawn back into
her reckless aims and
careless games

but
as the
years fade away
i have one stabbing regret

i wish

i wish i could remember
the color of her
eyes

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